trying to read a how section of readings the night before i have to turn a paper in is ridicilous. but thats beside the point. the weeks coming up are very important for me, i am getting very nervous and almost dont know what to do.
but i know how to control my thoughts in a way now, atleast i think i do, its like ive been given antidepressants but they are definity natural. however im still not in that "happy" state. i talked to my friend about this, i told him how hard it is, i know we are all fighting for it. its the number one goal to achieve.
there are so many ways i could take my life though. i could just throw school all away and try to live in the forest.
i could finish school and go to grad school and be a psychologist
i could be an artist
i could get a sex change
i could move to austraila
i could move to any place thats warm or awesome
i could stay here
i could become a buddist
i could get knocked up
i could write
anything really.
who knows. all i can do is be here today and stop wishing that things could have been different
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