need a fucking punching bag of a person, not abuse because they could do it back.
im fucking 19 i dont know what the hell im doing or what i want but it always seems like everyone else has it, and i dont like them because of it and that makes me a horrible person and i know it.
and i know thats a run on sentence but this is my blog and there are no rules
even though this blogger is controlled by rules because it is made by the internet and the internet is made by us and we make rules and i want to fuck it all up.
i want to tear apart all of this mess and rebuild it because this inst at all what i wanted, but i made it also so it my fault too.
and noone understands me except for like 5 people maybe and how the fuck am i ever going to do this
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
sex is so fucking stupid! its the last thing on my mind and the first because of this stupid place.
i never thought of it until everyone else did it and i freaked out why was i not a plant in the ground who just needs the sun to fuck because then its not such a big deal. but its makes me mad because im not like everyone else and im not a fucking plant. i just want to feel something,not this flat two dimentional shit.
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