Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
FREEDOM
i read on some website the only way to be truely free is to love yourself and love everyone unconditionally no matter what they say or do.
its really hard because that is true love. because if you look around we set all kinds of conditions onto ourselves and everyone.
saying to ourselves: if i do this i will like my self,she or he should do this for me, i cant believe he or she did that, ect... there are so many expectations
you have to care and see that everything is meaningful, what you do effects everything. you have to live in the present, living in the present is one of the hardest at least for me.
i think that is why we made up the concept of God. to have something to believe in. to believe that someone loves us unconditionally, because once someone does it gives you the motiviation to want to do it also. im not saying hes not real, i just think we had to make it more of a person something we could relate to.
its really hard because that is true love. because if you look around we set all kinds of conditions onto ourselves and everyone.
saying to ourselves: if i do this i will like my self,she or he should do this for me, i cant believe he or she did that, ect... there are so many expectations
you have to care and see that everything is meaningful, what you do effects everything. you have to live in the present, living in the present is one of the hardest at least for me.
i think that is why we made up the concept of God. to have something to believe in. to believe that someone loves us unconditionally, because once someone does it gives you the motiviation to want to do it also. im not saying hes not real, i just think we had to make it more of a person something we could relate to.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
the only drugs
i feel comfortable doing are downers and usually from my own supply.
last year at this very time, i was trying to do every single drug i could possibly find.
anything that anyone gave me i would do.
the first person i ever did a different drug other than weed with was mallory
i wokred with her for some time until we finally decided to talk, and then we decided to hang out.
i remember the first few conversations we had,
what book are you reading-me
oh its about eating disorders-mallory
the next few days
so where do you go to school?-mallory
duquesne, you?
i go to pitt, but slyvia told me you used to go to capa
yea i did
i used to go there until they took me away in handcuffs out the front door
slowly i learned more and more about her life and i was captivated. she lived the craziest life of a 20 year old of a person i actually knew and didnt just read in some book. she had been to jail, she had been homeless, and she had basically lived the life of someone twice her age.
the whole summer before mallory began working at the library i read about thirty books in three months. most were about drugs, people doing them, life and death.
all things i was obsessed with last year.
so i went to my first rave with her and took ecstacy, and riddlin for the first time.
the second ecstacy and weed
the third i went with juliet and introduced her to raves and ecstacy
by this time i had tried other things, i was on klonopin for aniexty, tried shrooms, coke, and other various pills.
but i can say honestly it was one of the more exciting years of my life.
i saw a comletely different underground culture that i didnt know existed such as ravers.
so it was definity interesting, i dont know if ill ever do it exactly like that again, but who knows.
last year at this very time, i was trying to do every single drug i could possibly find.
anything that anyone gave me i would do.
the first person i ever did a different drug other than weed with was mallory
i wokred with her for some time until we finally decided to talk, and then we decided to hang out.
i remember the first few conversations we had,
what book are you reading-me
oh its about eating disorders-mallory
the next few days
so where do you go to school?-mallory
duquesne, you?
i go to pitt, but slyvia told me you used to go to capa
yea i did
i used to go there until they took me away in handcuffs out the front door
slowly i learned more and more about her life and i was captivated. she lived the craziest life of a 20 year old of a person i actually knew and didnt just read in some book. she had been to jail, she had been homeless, and she had basically lived the life of someone twice her age.
the whole summer before mallory began working at the library i read about thirty books in three months. most were about drugs, people doing them, life and death.
all things i was obsessed with last year.
so i went to my first rave with her and took ecstacy, and riddlin for the first time.
the second ecstacy and weed
the third i went with juliet and introduced her to raves and ecstacy
by this time i had tried other things, i was on klonopin for aniexty, tried shrooms, coke, and other various pills.
but i can say honestly it was one of the more exciting years of my life.
i saw a comletely different underground culture that i didnt know existed such as ravers.
so it was definity interesting, i dont know if ill ever do it exactly like that again, but who knows.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
if you do everything wrong
your eventually going to do something right, right?
i have a lot of insecuities, but if you just tell yourself that you love yourself you can fake it until you make it right?
i cant wait for 2010, 2009 was a year of death.
im just saying FUCK IT
im too young, and too old to be caring about this shit
i have a lot of insecuities, but if you just tell yourself that you love yourself you can fake it until you make it right?
i cant wait for 2010, 2009 was a year of death.
im just saying FUCK IT
im too young, and too old to be caring about this shit
Friday, December 18, 2009
MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL
sometimes i think i used to be one haha.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manic_Pixie_Dream_Girl
which mean i basically had no brain
but it is kind of funny.
i dunno what happened but i miss being different old lisa's if that makes any sense
every year i hate the new lisa more, and think about the year before this one.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manic_Pixie_Dream_Girl
which mean i basically had no brain
but it is kind of funny.
i dunno what happened but i miss being different old lisa's if that makes any sense
every year i hate the new lisa more, and think about the year before this one.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
oh i work myself up
my stomach and neck are always in knots.
i want someone to just fucking untie all this shit.
if people thought of me as much as i thought of them the world would never fucking move or progress.
it would be the most retarded world ever.
i got guitar hero.
i dont need to leave my house for quite some time.
i want someone to just fucking untie all this shit.
if people thought of me as much as i thought of them the world would never fucking move or progress.
it would be the most retarded world ever.
i got guitar hero.
i dont need to leave my house for quite some time.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
there are some people
that arent bothered if noone likes them.
then there are the others....
im making a club, ive decided
i always wanted to make an organization but im not very organized so it would probably fail
i also always say things im going to do and then never do them
the QUEEN OF FALSE HOPE.
people who say noone likes them usually have alot of people who like them but they dont try.
thoughts keep looping thoughts keep looping thoughts keep looping thoughts keep looping
and i have the fucking battle with my mind all FUCKING DAY AND I WANT IT TO STOP AND JUST WHEN I CANT TAKE THE SHIT ANYMORE i find a ritual. ocd? am i obsessive? am i in love with beating myself up? is this why noone likes me? they cant take my questions? am i obsessive? is it bad to be so hard on yourself? noone likes me? how much do i annoy them with my thoughts?
ENDLESS FUCKING QUESTIONS REPHRASED ALL FUCKING DAY!
welcome to the fucking organization i madeee!!!! we all fucking hate you and love you and ill be euthatistic and tell you your clothes look nice. and ill wear my hair all crazy but not dye it orange or blue so i dont go too much into character.
wheres my MEDICINE!!!! give it to meeeeeeeeeeeee
they all know im living in my head, you got to call the ambulance im dying! i just want to ride in an ambulance, i just want someone to tell me im ok who is professional, they know what to look for. they are nice. they talk to you. they dont really believe you, they think your just another fucked up kid but they pretend to be your best friend, call you sweetie. you have friends!
your not alone again talking to your mom at work in your doorway freaking out, telling her about an invisble person choking you.
one day ill going to turn it all around, it doesnt happen this way. noone would live this long if it did.
i just need techniques, trick my coniousness,WHO IS A FUCKING BITCH, into thinking nice things
i dont remeber how i did it before. maybe getting really fed up with everything? get angry? should i get some anger issues? i never went down that route before, where i just fuck everything up by tearing it apart.
then there are the others....
im making a club, ive decided
i always wanted to make an organization but im not very organized so it would probably fail
i also always say things im going to do and then never do them
the QUEEN OF FALSE HOPE.
people who say noone likes them usually have alot of people who like them but they dont try.
thoughts keep looping thoughts keep looping thoughts keep looping thoughts keep looping
and i have the fucking battle with my mind all FUCKING DAY AND I WANT IT TO STOP AND JUST WHEN I CANT TAKE THE SHIT ANYMORE i find a ritual. ocd? am i obsessive? am i in love with beating myself up? is this why noone likes me? they cant take my questions? am i obsessive? is it bad to be so hard on yourself? noone likes me? how much do i annoy them with my thoughts?
ENDLESS FUCKING QUESTIONS REPHRASED ALL FUCKING DAY!
welcome to the fucking organization i madeee!!!! we all fucking hate you and love you and ill be euthatistic and tell you your clothes look nice. and ill wear my hair all crazy but not dye it orange or blue so i dont go too much into character.
wheres my MEDICINE!!!! give it to meeeeeeeeeeeee
they all know im living in my head, you got to call the ambulance im dying! i just want to ride in an ambulance, i just want someone to tell me im ok who is professional, they know what to look for. they are nice. they talk to you. they dont really believe you, they think your just another fucked up kid but they pretend to be your best friend, call you sweetie. you have friends!
your not alone again talking to your mom at work in your doorway freaking out, telling her about an invisble person choking you.
one day ill going to turn it all around, it doesnt happen this way. noone would live this long if it did.
i just need techniques, trick my coniousness,WHO IS A FUCKING BITCH, into thinking nice things
i dont remeber how i did it before. maybe getting really fed up with everything? get angry? should i get some anger issues? i never went down that route before, where i just fuck everything up by tearing it apart.
Friday, December 11, 2009
you know whats sick
i think i dont know who im suppose to be anymore.
usually i find good characters to imiate and put my own personality into but lately ive been searching for a new one because they get old
like lux lisbon, or clementine krunsinki. im a fraud and its the only thing im good at.
maybe its fucked up that i pretend to be these girls but i guess they are the people i want to be because they arent real and not being real appeals to me.
i thought things were going my way for a second but it looks like i have to put more effort and hard work into what ever im trying to do.
what if i fail, well i guess its better than not trying right, anything is better than that.
however i hate looking stupid, but im so good at it.
people can just sense how fucking retarded im being and it makes me nervous and never want to do anyhting again except destroy my temporal part of my brain and fuck up my memory.
my brain is one giant loop and its always thinking. first its positive and then all of a sudden the negative thought comes in right a way and i have a huge battle the rest of the day, that is how all of my days starts and ends and im looking for that to stop. i need it to stop and this is the only reason why i want to kill myself sometimes it because it never fucking stops.
when i was really happy about life and crap, nothing brought me down until external forces did. now its myself. the last person i have to tell off.
i thought everyone liked me and that noone was bothered by me and i could ask them whatever i wanted and say whatever i wanted look how i wanted.
and now for some reason it all fucking matters. except it doesnt and i really should learn from my old self. it should be the opposite way around by some how i progressed into a shitty crazy fucked up person.
i should just keep telling myself what i did back then.
NONE OF THIS SHIT MATTERS.
noone cares and noones opinon matters.
do you really want to keep being who you were? no well then fix it, do whatever it takes to make yourself different and happy.
so i did.
i was persistent
i didnt give a shit.
if everyhting is not going to matter then what the hell why are we all stuck in this weired shit where we think we cant do anyhting?
usually i find good characters to imiate and put my own personality into but lately ive been searching for a new one because they get old
like lux lisbon, or clementine krunsinki. im a fraud and its the only thing im good at.
maybe its fucked up that i pretend to be these girls but i guess they are the people i want to be because they arent real and not being real appeals to me.
i thought things were going my way for a second but it looks like i have to put more effort and hard work into what ever im trying to do.
what if i fail, well i guess its better than not trying right, anything is better than that.
however i hate looking stupid, but im so good at it.
people can just sense how fucking retarded im being and it makes me nervous and never want to do anyhting again except destroy my temporal part of my brain and fuck up my memory.
my brain is one giant loop and its always thinking. first its positive and then all of a sudden the negative thought comes in right a way and i have a huge battle the rest of the day, that is how all of my days starts and ends and im looking for that to stop. i need it to stop and this is the only reason why i want to kill myself sometimes it because it never fucking stops.
when i was really happy about life and crap, nothing brought me down until external forces did. now its myself. the last person i have to tell off.
i thought everyone liked me and that noone was bothered by me and i could ask them whatever i wanted and say whatever i wanted look how i wanted.
and now for some reason it all fucking matters. except it doesnt and i really should learn from my old self. it should be the opposite way around by some how i progressed into a shitty crazy fucked up person.
i should just keep telling myself what i did back then.
NONE OF THIS SHIT MATTERS.
noone cares and noones opinon matters.
do you really want to keep being who you were? no well then fix it, do whatever it takes to make yourself different and happy.
so i did.
i was persistent
i didnt give a shit.
if everyhting is not going to matter then what the hell why are we all stuck in this weired shit where we think we cant do anyhting?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Synchronicity
in which the White Queen says to Alice: "It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards".[
blonde skinny catholic girls
i saw one today.
its like the virgin suicides which im obsessed with for some reason
they usually have boob lenght blonde german hair
conservitive clothes with a tiny gold cross necklace.
and talk really sweet about nothing in particular and have this really empty sad look.
its so plain and virginal i cant take it.
for some reason these girls stand out to me.
the farther away from weired you are the wiereder you look
its like the virgin suicides which im obsessed with for some reason
they usually have boob lenght blonde german hair
conservitive clothes with a tiny gold cross necklace.
and talk really sweet about nothing in particular and have this really empty sad look.
its so plain and virginal i cant take it.
for some reason these girls stand out to me.
the farther away from weired you are the wiereder you look
me juliet the mouse and everyone we know
yesterday was a fucking good day.
i felt the same way as juliet, that i was the better part of me yesterday.
i usually just feel like dying at any giving moment during the day but not yesterday.
i cant believe that there can be so maybe levels of a person but there is.
i usually just think that people are just being the emotion of what happened to them but there is much more.
i have the mouse in my basement because my mom is scared of him and thinks hes ugly and gray. but me and my dad like him we feed him crackers and cheese.
i think we are going t okeep him a secret from my mom but she might find out.
consciedence
i felt the same way as juliet, that i was the better part of me yesterday.
i usually just feel like dying at any giving moment during the day but not yesterday.
i cant believe that there can be so maybe levels of a person but there is.
i usually just think that people are just being the emotion of what happened to them but there is much more.
i have the mouse in my basement because my mom is scared of him and thinks hes ugly and gray. but me and my dad like him we feed him crackers and cheese.
i think we are going t okeep him a secret from my mom but she might find out.
consciedence
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
________________
it is weired to feel like you have a memory of dying?
or a memory of flying around your living room?
i think i have those
unless someone talked me into believing i had them when i was young
i think alot of people have tricked me into believing a lot of false memories
i feel ignored
when i do nothing i feel remembered
I WANT TO SMASH MY HEAD WITH ANYTHING
until all the axons and dendrites come out and i kill that little shit over thinking part of my brain and i am at peace and happy again
or a memory of flying around your living room?
i think i have those
unless someone talked me into believing i had them when i was young
i think alot of people have tricked me into believing a lot of false memories
i feel ignored
when i do nothing i feel remembered
I WANT TO SMASH MY HEAD WITH ANYTHING
until all the axons and dendrites come out and i kill that little shit over thinking part of my brain and i am at peace and happy again
Monday, December 7, 2009
connections
sometimes i think things are more than a conscidence
now more than ever
if i keep getting older i dont know what other things ill find
i cant believe people actually live this long and longer
someone must have felt what i have already
19 years is very short but think of 40 how do people come to terms with it
what is the secret?
now more than ever
if i keep getting older i dont know what other things ill find
i cant believe people actually live this long and longer
someone must have felt what i have already
19 years is very short but think of 40 how do people come to terms with it
what is the secret?
philadelphia and newyork 69th post ha
i actually thought philadelphia was very beauitful and so was newyork once again. it was snowing and hailing at one point but i looked up and all the lights kind of worked with it at one point while we were looking for lizzys mom and emily and i liked it. even if everyone else was really pissed off. we spent about five to six hours in newyork and then got on a bus once again. i liked seeing lizzy. something about her makes me so happy its unbelievable. she really does like people in the best of ways. but she really knows how to make you feel stupid and sometimes feel bad about yourself also.
and i think me and my mom got along also. i always think she is fucking with me but sometimes she really inst. i have a bunch of crap to do for school and it sucks.
but for the most part i dont really know what to do. a bunch of people are making me nervous, and i dont know how to explain it.
everyone is understanding things, but its all backwards or something. i dont know what im seeing or trying to explain.
and i think me and my mom got along also. i always think she is fucking with me but sometimes she really inst. i have a bunch of crap to do for school and it sucks.
but for the most part i dont really know what to do. a bunch of people are making me nervous, and i dont know how to explain it.
everyone is understanding things, but its all backwards or something. i dont know what im seeing or trying to explain.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
home
it felt good to be home
and not on a train for 9 hours
i think my brain exploded and imploded all at the same time
school tommorrow
im really interested though in how things are working
backwards almost. for everyone
if anyone understands what im talking about just say so
im so tired so im just going to talk about nothing
things feel so fake like i just made them all up and they do what i tell them to do or not to do
or that there is a million things i know but i wont let myself know or say out loud because i think it will all go away in an instant
just grab onto the ground because i feel like im being ripped away constantly
like i know im going to blink and nothing will be there and i knew it and its not shocking like everything is telling me to think
working backwards or knowing something or seeing something or smelling something from the past is just confusing its the ultimate plan to fuck us to make us never figure anything out
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
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Stranger: muh majik is workin'.
You: your kayne west right?
Stranger: and i'm gonna let you finish...
You: holy shit
You: because im taylor swift
Stranger: IF KANYE STOLE THE MICROPHONE CAN YOU~ TAY TAY~ REALLY BE "SWIFT".
You: no wonder you made me cry 5 SECONDS AGO
Stranger: lawl.
You: oh when your 15 and someone tells you they love you
Stranger: NOOOOOO
Stranger: BROTHER NOOOOO
You: LIKE THAT TAWT OF A JONAS BORTHER
Stranger: ew ew ew
You: ifcuked him real good
Stranger: ohhhhh
Stranger: spicy
Stranger: oogly.
You: haha
You: oogly?
Stranger: yeah, bro.
Stranger: :DDDDD
You: i dont know what you mean
Stranger: like 'icky',
Stranger: YOUR DIALECT IS WEIRD.
Stranger: AND I DON'T LIKE IT
Stranger: crazy yanks.
You: WHAT
You: FUCK THAT
You: WHERE ARE YOU FROM
Stranger: you speak a funny brand of english.
You: YOU FUCKING FOREIGNER
You: im blow your shit up
Stranger: AUSTRALIA: HOME OF BOREDOM.
Stranger: NOOOOOOOOOOOO
Stranger: ha, you must be a yank then!
You: ITS ALREADY SHIT
You: ILL FUCK IT
Stranger: boom baby.
Stranger: WER U FRUM?
You: AMERIKA
Stranger: HAHA. I WIN.
You: how did you know
You: do i talk black
Stranger: i'm magic.
Stranger: omg. ~racism~
Stranger: sparkles.
You: you knew i was a black person
You: a black lesbian ghost
Stranger: i thought you were white?
You: no i am
Stranger: YOU SEEM WHITE OKAY?
You: im just kidding
You: how do i seem white
You: that sucks
Stranger: you confuse my small moth brain.
Stranger: you're not cool enough to be black?
Stranger: sorry.
Stranger: that was mean.
You: its ok i cant do anything about it
Stranger: have a black baby?
Stranger: obama's hot.
You: omg your right 16 and pregnant
Stranger: you have one fine president.
You: obama is really hot
Stranger: YOU'RE 19.
Stranger: do obama, and have his half-black baby.
You: ive been wanitng to hit that forever
Stranger: hottt.
Stranger: oh hell yes.
Stranger: most straight guys i know, would hit that.
Stranger: oh dear me.
Stranger: i'm coming across as a maniac.
Stranger: but do have a cup of tea.
You: um yeah i mean this inst real
You: your a delusion
Stranger: a god delusion?
You: and so am i
You: in fact your going to wake up
You: in about 2 hours
You: and your goign to be a man
Stranger: follow the white rabbit?
Stranger: I HAVE NO PENIS.
Stranger: AND I DON'T WANT ONE.
You: yeah take some acid it will work then
Stranger: ohhh acid. i see.
Stranger: i only have weeds at my usage.
Stranger: or that may just be basil.
Stranger: i'mnot really sure.
You: well your still going to wake up and be someone completely different
You: and not remember shit
Stranger: OHHH CREEPY.
Stranger: LIKE FIGHT CLUB
You: yep
You: tyler dyrdun
Stranger: ohhh i'd go tyler durden.
You: fuck
Stranger: haha.
You: i fucked up his name
Stranger: i'd fuck his name too..
Stranger: oh wait...
Stranger: what>
Stranger: ?
You: ruined my whole plan
Stranger: to fuck his name?
You: nah i was trying to appear all knowing
Stranger: sie nimmt dich mit, nach chicago.
Stranger: see?
You: what
You: what
You: what are you doing
You: are you turning on me
You: R
You: R
You: R
You: R
You: R
You: R
You: R
You: R
You: R
You: R
You: U
You: U
You: U
You: U
You: THERE
Stranger: yes
You: O
Stranger: sorry
You: C
You: C
You: C
You: C
You: DDD
Stranger: checking something
You: IS A BITCH
Stranger: ok
You have disconnected.
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You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
You: HEY YOU STUPID WHORE
Stranger: :(
You: thats right
Stranger: son, i am dissapoint.
You: i wear the pants
Stranger: THEN HOW AM I ON COMPUTER?
You: you wear the skirt
You: HOW THE FUCK AM I
Stranger: WIMMENS DON'T EXIST ON INTERNET.
You: ?
You: YEAH THEY DO
Stranger: ohhh you're so out of touch with the memes.
Stranger: so out of touch.
You: whats those
Stranger: i shun you, pants wearer.
You: answer me when im talking to you
Stranger: nahh
Stranger: i'm cool.
You: im going to slap you
You: silly
Stranger: JUST BECAUSE YOU BEAT YOUR WIFE AND DAUGHTER, DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN BEAT ME.
You: WAP
You: WAP
Stranger: YOU MANSLUT.
You: WAP
You: WAP
Stranger: *ducked all*
Stranger: hahahaha
You: actually im a 19 year old girl
Stranger: ha! i'm 18.
Stranger: i win.
You: no
Stranger: yes.
Stranger: because you're old.
You: BUT I DO HAVE A WIFE
You: they wont let me go
You: oh nooo
Stranger: LIBERATION IS COOL.
You: im not old
Stranger: be liberated!
You: am i wrinkling
You: can someone tell me
Stranger: a little.
You: oh gawd
Stranger: your typing gives it away.
Stranger: IT
Stranger: IT'S OKAY!!
You: 18 YEAR OLDS SUCK MY COCK
Stranger: only your elbows are wrinkling.
Stranger: mean!
You: fucking new assholes
You: can tear through them
Stranger: lolwut?
You: i duno
Stranger: 'kay. it's okay.
Stranger: i trust you.
You: really why would you
You: i could be a 58 year old man
You: or a tranny
Stranger: YOU LIED
You: NO REALLY IM 19
Stranger: i have very little problems with trannys.
You: i have muliple personailties
Stranger: that made no grammatical sence.
Stranger: me, i mean.
Stranger: ohhhhh.
You: oh really
Stranger: like tara?
You: who is tara
You: who the fuck is tara
Stranger: a character.
You: what
Stranger: on a television show.
You: not her
Stranger: haha, n00b.
Stranger: n00b at life.
Stranger: you.
Stranger: n00b.
You: no i lived in a claset
You: *closet
Stranger: a what?
Stranger: lol
Stranger: lololololol
Stranger: hurr hurr hurr
You: i know im the child called it
Stranger: I HAVE A UNIQUE LAUGH OKAY?
Stranger: you're in the closet?
Stranger: i thought you had a wife.
You: YEAH IM ALSO A LESBIAN
Stranger: LESBIANS ARE PEOPLE TOO, YOU KNOW.
You: she found me along time ago kind of in narina
Stranger: ohhhh.
Stranger: narnia.
You: yeah
Stranger: i've always wanted to holiday there.
You: WELL YOU SHOULD
You: MY WIFE IS THE LION
Stranger: i hear it's ~~~delightful~~~ in summer.
Stranger: OH SHI-
Stranger: YOU MARRIED A LIONESS?
You: yeah
You: but im also a ghost
You: its an unforutate series of events
Stranger: YOU'RE SO UNIQUE.
Stranger: hahaahaha
Stranger: SO MANY LAZYREFERENCES
Stranger: LAZY REFERENCES*
You: lesbian ghost
Stranger: HARRY POTTER.
Stranger: DID IT FOR YOU.
You: look man harry's my brother
You: we live in that closet
Stranger: snape...snape...serverous snape...
Stranger: under the stairs?
You: yeah i made that
Stranger: no doubt.
You: i made that video
Stranger: witty of you.
You: i know right
You: ?
Stranger: you're an international woman of mystery.
You: you want to know why my hairs so big
Stranger: yes.
You: and im a lesbian
Stranger: you know...right.
You: its full of secret
Stranger: IT'S FULL OF SECRETS
Stranger: oh damn.
Stranger: beat me to it.
You: win
Stranger: fail.
You: no
You: so what are you
You: ive been talking about myself
You: cause im fat and i eat so much
You: so im self centered
Stranger: what u want, bb i got it.
You: OHHHHH
You: OHHH *88888*
Stranger: i am a moth.
You: no
Stranger: yes.
You: holycrap
You: how do you type
Stranger: i hover around lights.
Stranger: i have ~mind control.
You: no way
You: what am i thinking about
Stranger: i'm controlling a stupid humanz.
You: right now
Stranger: naww. i only control people.
You: well im kind of a person
Stranger: i'm controlling you right now.
Stranger: you can't feel my penetrating wings though,
Stranger: i'm super powerful.
You: ohhhh its turning me on
Stranger: I INVENTED FACEBOOK.
You: fap fap fap
You: no you didnt
Stranger: OH DEAR.
Stranger: I DID.
You: STFU!
You: i use that everyday
Stranger: i mind controlled the facebook guy.
You: i masterbate with that
Stranger: THEN I CONTROL YOU.
Stranger: YOU SEX FIEND./
You: LIKE MYSPACE NEVER DID IT FOR ME
Stranger: MYSPACE SUCKED,
You: i know
You: jeezz
You: so are you really a man
You: i dont think so
You: your a chick
Stranger: I'M A LADY WHOA WHOA WHOA
You: holy shit
You: do you go to church
You: ive seen you man
Stranger: i'm seriously an 18 year old female.
Stranger: i'm agnostic.
Stranger: but i controlled jesus.
You: your the one that stalked me remeber
Stranger: I AM AN AGNOSTIC MOTH.
You: holy shit
Stranger: AND I CONTROL YOU.
Stranger: AND EVERY FACEBOOK USER EVER.
You: theres a stalker book?
You: no
You: no
You: no
You: no
Stranger: ohhh. so stealing that idea.
You: dont find me
You: my name is lisa
Stranger: besides that's normal facey.
Stranger: i'm tess.
Stranger: OMG LISA SIMPSON?
You: yes
You: srsly
You: happy birthday lisa lisa its your birthday
You: that was written for me
You: thats how special i am
Stranger: wowowwowowow
Stranger: michael jackson loves you.
Stranger: too soon?
You: omg
You: dont make me cry
Stranger: omg.
Stranger: sorry bb.
You: its ok
Stranger: he was a god.
You: i humped his dead corspe
Stranger: ohhhh sexy.
You: i know
Stranger: i made you do that.
Stranger: remember,mind control?
You: can you teach me the secret
Stranger: FEAR ALL MOTHS.
Stranger: pretty much.
Stranger: that.
You: ok
You: ive been afraid of them for a while now
Stranger: oh wow. i've really been working it, then,
Stranger: muh majik is workin'.
You: your kayne west right?
Stranger: and i'm gonna let you finish...
You: holy shit
You: because im taylor swift
Stranger: IF KANYE STOLE THE MICROPHONE CAN YOU~ TAY TAY~ REALLY BE "SWIFT".
You: no wonder you made me cry 5 SECONDS AGO
Stranger: lawl.
You: oh when your 15 and someone tells you they love you
Stranger: NOOOOOO
Stranger: BROTHER NOOOOO
You: LIKE THAT TAWT OF A JONAS BORTHER
Stranger: ew ew ew
You: ifcuked him real good
Stranger: ohhhhh
Stranger: spicy
Stranger: oogly.
You: haha
You: oogly?
Stranger: yeah, bro.
Stranger: :DDDDD
You: i dont know what you mean
Stranger: like 'icky',
Stranger: YOUR DIALECT IS WEIRD.
Stranger: AND I DON'T LIKE IT
Stranger: crazy yanks.
You: WHAT
You: FUCK THAT
You: WHERE ARE YOU FROM
Stranger: you speak a funny brand of english.
You: YOU FUCKING FOREIGNER
You: im blow your shit up
Stranger: AUSTRALIA: HOME OF BOREDOM.
Stranger: NOOOOOOOOOOOO
Stranger: ha, you must be a yank then!
You: ITS ALREADY SHIT
You: ILL FUCK IT
Stranger: boom baby.
Stranger: WER U FRUM?
You: AMERIKA
Stranger: HAHA. I WIN.
You: how did you know
You: do i talk black
Stranger: i'm magic.
Stranger: omg. ~racism~
Stranger: sparkles.
You: you knew i was a black person
You: a black lesbian ghost
Stranger: i thought you were white?
You: no i am
Stranger: YOU SEEM WHITE OKAY?
You: im just kidding
You: how do i seem white
You: that sucks
Stranger: you confuse my small moth brain.
Stranger: you're not cool enough to be black?
Stranger: sorry.
Stranger: that was mean.
You: its ok i cant do anything about it
Stranger: have a black baby?
Stranger: obama's hot.
You: omg your right 16 and pregnant
Stranger: you have one fine president.
You: obama is really hot
Stranger: YOU'RE 19.
Stranger: do obama, and have his half-black baby.
You: ive been wanitng to hit that forever
Stranger: hottt.
Stranger: oh hell yes.
Stranger: most straight guys i know, would hit that.
Stranger: oh dear me.
Stranger: i'm coming across as a maniac.
Stranger: but do have a cup of tea.
You: um yeah i mean this inst real
You: your a delusion
Stranger: a god delusion?
You: and so am i
You: in fact your going to wake up
You: in about 2 hours
You: and your goign to be a man
Stranger: follow the white rabbit?
Stranger: I HAVE NO PENIS.
Stranger: AND I DON'T WANT ONE.
You: yeah take some acid it will work then
Stranger: ohhh acid. i see.
Stranger: i only have weeds at my usage.
Stranger: or that may just be basil.
Stranger: i'mnot really sure.
You: well your still going to wake up and be someone completely different
You: and not remember shit
Stranger: OHHH CREEPY.
Stranger: LIKE FIGHT CLUB
You: yep
You: tyler dyrdun
Stranger: ohhh i'd go tyler durden.
You: fuck
Stranger: haha.
You: i fucked up his name
Stranger: i'd fuck his name too..
Stranger: oh wait...
Stranger: what>
Stranger: ?
You: ruined my whole plan
Stranger: to fuck his name?
You: nah i was trying to appear all knowing
Stranger: sie nimmt dich mit, nach chicago.
Stranger: see?
You: what
You: what
You: what are you doing
You: are you turning on me
EXPERIMENT
im excited but im not telling anyone else what it is it will ruin it
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but anyways im at school
i forgot my phone
i have work
today might drag
i watched the movie battle royale yesterday again
i still like it
nothing is changing but it will
i want to work at quoda with juliet lol
i want to do alot of things in the next year or two hopefully i can fit them all in
more later....
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but anyways im at school
i forgot my phone
i have work
today might drag
i watched the movie battle royale yesterday again
i still like it
nothing is changing but it will
i want to work at quoda with juliet lol
i want to do alot of things in the next year or two hopefully i can fit them all in
more later....
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
this girl
i was sitting with yesterday told me she was questioning her sexuality
i have always been doing that so i was interested
she was like everything basically checks off
she never had boyfriends the last one she had was in eighth grade and shes a really pretty girl so it makes no sense
shes in a band
she thinks about girls sometimes
she likes anime
she has all guy friends
and she told me a bunch of other things, i mean some of these things dont really check off for me but i dont think i will ever know what the hell i am.
i have always been doing that so i was interested
she was like everything basically checks off
she never had boyfriends the last one she had was in eighth grade and shes a really pretty girl so it makes no sense
shes in a band
she thinks about girls sometimes
she likes anime
she has all guy friends
and she told me a bunch of other things, i mean some of these things dont really check off for me but i dont think i will ever know what the hell i am.
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