i wonder if im the weakess person ever?

i hate feeling stupid and all that junk.
i just feel like im going to throw up lately
i dont know if its because my nerves have been totally shot, or if im stressed and cant tell and its just physically manifesting itself.

who knows

i had a interesting dream last night.
i think i was high on something and i was in a circle with a bunch of people that i knew such as lizzy and aj and they were argueing about how their brother fainted and died on whatever i was on. and they all turned to me and everything was getting black and gray and fuzzy and they all started chanting some weired nonsense sentence.

some thing about some guy named tom.

and i fell on the ground and i was still looking around the room and their voices were now getting in my head. then everything was getting dark and flooded with water and i was outside now and it was raining. and i looked up and i was trapped in between this building and i was looking for someone and then i woke up when they finally called me.